Sunday, July 30, 2017

To My Readers

If any of you read about what happened to my Household on Friday, July 21st, I'd like to share some good news:


Even though we were unable to get a loan to cover the money that was taken from the Household account, my savings, and a joint account that has Shilo's name on it ($3,600 total), between Shilo cashing in some vacation, an unexpected check in the mail, donations sent via Paypal, a check on its way in the mail, and some donations from GoFundMe, it looks like we are close enough to our goal ($2,500) that ALL the expenses (Rent, car insurance, utilities and gasoline so Shilo can go to work) are covered.


It's been a rough 9 days, and it feels good to breathe easy again.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

One Year Ago Today (7-25) Just Before Midnight... And other things...

I had my accident, and broke my right humerus in two places.The following afternoon, my Mentor lost his life after suffering a series of major strokes. He was 64.

Today I'm mostly healed, although I sometimes have residual pain. There are still some things I'm unable to do in spite of the many hours of PT that I endured. Still, I'm grateful for the movement I have, and I know what a long way I've come since then.

On July 13th, I turned 56. A few nights later, Shilo and Stitch took me out to dinner.  It was a fun night, and I'm glad we went out.

On July 21st, I woke up to this email:




There were 2 other emails in addition to this one. A total of $3,666 and some change was taken from my accounts. Note that the one above is marked "HOUSEHOLD."  Keep in mind that while these accounts all have my name on it. not a single penny is mine. The money belonged to Stitch and Shilo. It was the money we use for rent, utilities, car insurance and gasoline so Shilo can get to and from work every day (75 miles roundtrip!)

HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???!!!

is a question we've been asked by others. It's simple, and yet not so simple. Our theory is that sometime in March wile we were moving a Summons was handed to someone (my guess is my oldest son age 33) and it wasn't given to me. The court date came, and a default judgement was made, so my funds were seized.

Shilo drove me to the Van Nuys Courthouse and we were told to call the Attorney for the other side. They didn't care that the money wasn't "mine" all they cared about was that they got "their" money.

Over the weekend both Shilo and Stitch (together and separately) applied for loans from at least 20 different companies with each one getting rejected. As a last-ditch effort, I opened a Go Fund Me page. This isn't my proudest moment. I don't like showing my vulnerabilities, and I DETEST asking for help, but like my Mom always told me "You don't get if you don't ask;" and this is truly an emergency.  If you are willing or able to help, the link is below. Also, if you want to share, it would be appreciated.


(GoFundMe link redacted)


Thank You!

Merry
















Friday, July 7, 2017

The Agreement (One week later) with Fire Details Bonus

Fire Details?

Let's go there first. Did I mention that my boyfriend is originally from England? He even has a thick British accent. Unfortunately, he mumbles often, so talking on the phone is often an exercise in futility. I personally DETEST texting, but he is my exception to the rule, but more in that later.

I'm pretty sure we can all agree that when it comes to verbal expressions, the British have a way with words that most people in the US just don't quite understand. His "verbiage" caused a woman to get upset with him recently, and she accused him of being thoughtless and mean. He may be a Sadist, but he is neither thoughtless or mean. It's just that what his British friends would laugh and smile at, this poor woman took to be an insult. Now, instead of just apologizing and moving on (like any other man should do!) He explained himself!


Any woman in the US will tell you that all explaining does is get us more upset and angry! The smart (US) way of just apologizing usually suffices, and prevents blowups. Poor dear man! He just doesn't "get" it, so between dealing with my own stuff, I got stuck between a crying justifiably angry woman, and a sweet confused man saying "But, I was..." It's after 10:30 here and my phone hasn't gone off, so I think (hope) all is well.

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Back to the Agreement:


I don't normally share details of my formal agreements with others, but in order to understand the progress (or lack thereof) it might be helpful to know what's in  this one, so I will share.

Here is a copy of the Agreement with requests:



General Agreement Proposal

We agree that this Relationship was and is founded in Love, and that we will speak to one another in a Loving and Caring manner, always showing respect for each other. We may not always agree on things but we will do our best to not say hurtful or disrespectful things to one another.

We understand/agree that polyamory is involved, and that in itself requires open lines of communication at all times. We promise to discuss our feelings, rather than allow bad feelings to fester, and, if either of us feels overwhelmed and unable to speak, the affected person will write down what S/he is feeling in a journal entry or email, and direct the other's attention to it.

We may pursue relationships with others, but we are not obligated to discuss it until such a time when we feel that said relationships will be of some Importance. Fetlife or Facebook relationship changes are considered to be important. Boyfriend’s FWB’s are not included in this.

If Merry decides she wants to pursue a serious relationship with someone, She will hold a meeting with Shilo, Stitch, and Boyfriend (if he desires) so that She may discuss Her feelings and gain their approval. They understand that they are expected to give approval, unless they can provide a justifiable reason as to why said relationship would be detrimental to Her. They also understand that if they have not yet met the person in question, a meeting will be held so they can ask questions and get to know the person. They will not discuss their opinions amongst themselves unless Merry is present.

Any sexual relationships (in this case, intercourse) other than FWB’s will be discussed in advance if possible. Any potential sexual partners for Merry are required to have a current HIV test done, and must interview separately with each Family Member (Currently Merry, Shilo, and Stitch) unless otherwise agreed. Approval is by majority vote. Boyfriend understands that Merry wants and appreciates feedback on her decisions, and hopes that Boyfriend will give the same courtesy to her.

Boyfriend agrees to never mention his FWB’s with Merry unless he is directly asked. Both Boyfriend and Merry agree to focus on each other when they are together. Other people and/or obligations will only be discussed in a general manner.

Requests

I would like to see you a minimum of once a month preferably twice. Days and amount of time at your convenience.

It would be nice if we contacted each other on a more regular basis. Once or twice a week, by Fetmail or text even if it’s only “Wow, I’m so busy, hope you are well.”

We will try to attend one event a year as a couple.

We agree to always use condoms and/or gloves when needed during sexual encounters with each other.

Boyfriend may request that Merry dress a certain way on their dates together. Merry agrees to any reasonable request.



I felt it was reasonable, although my boyfriend had a lot of "What if?" type questions.  He said he could not agree to notification in advance because sometimes things "just happen" (I rolled my eyes at that, but said nothing) and he also said that he couldn't commit to one event a year and made some silly excuse. Again, I rolled my eyes. I decided it wasn't worth the argument because he will eventually do it my way anyway (Because all men do) I also asked if he had any requests or suggestions, and he said he didn't. I'm jut waiting on it. It will come.

Since it's been a week I will share:

He has texted and Fetmailed me for six of the past 7 days, often with a back and forth of not understanding why someone is angry at him. I sent him a Fetmail requesting that he escort me to an event. Not as a date, but as a ride. He then went on to explain that he made plans to be with some girl (meaning sub) that night. I explained again that I wanted a ride, not a play partner. He agreed. 

The event above is in a month, and it's not a date. He hasn't yet made a date with me. I am waiting somewhat impatiently, but I am smiling because I trust he will remember. 

So far, I will give him an "E" for effort, because he is trying.



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TRUE! 5 MORE DAYS!!! 






This is Donna Dawg-Lass, my Pitbull (Bonus points if you know who she was named after)


Isn't she sweet? A week ago, instead of jumping on the bed with us, she put her head on the foot of the bed and whined. I thought it was strange, but I was tired, and she eventually settled on the floor. On Saturday afternoon, while I was cooking, she sat down watching me, and her head seemed to be cocked severely to the left. In fact, her walking was wobbly like she was drunk and she had a "stupid" look on her face. I called the vet at 7:15 Monday morning, and Donna as there at 8:30. Everything seemed normal, so the vet took some blood and gave a diagnosis of Idiopathic Vestibular Syndrome. Other than that, she said a "wait and see" approach was best. The vet called yesterday while I was asleep (it figures!) and told me the results were normal. In fact, they were "Excellent!"

Her head is less cocked today, but she still can't get up on the bed, so she has a blanket on the floor.

So, What's up with YOU?




























Saturday, July 1, 2017

Silence

"is golden".
Said the introvert quietly.

"But WHYYY???!!!"
the toddler and teenager screamed.

"Come closer and listen."
The Teacher said.

So they all huddled quietly at the feet of the introvert. And waited.
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Just as her audience was about to leave, the introvert spoke:

"We have sat in silence for a very long time. You waited to hear my words, because I rarely speak, but when I do, you find wisdom in my words. Am I correct?" They all nodded eagerly.


"Some people just like to hear their own voice. They speak nonstop about others, always presenting themselves as the Hero or the Victim when they are neither. No, they are Liars and Instigators. They bring Destruction to anyone who falls for their many words. They add some truth to their lies, and they sit in wait for anyone who will correct them, and then claim again to be the victim."

"Do you understand?"


The teenager spoke:
"So sometimes instead of being so eager to defend myself, I should sit and watch instead?"


"Yes," the introvert said. "If you have a good character, and you are honest, people who know you will vouch for you. They will see the lies for what they are, and, if asked, they will speak the truth."


"But what about that mean kid that steals my toys?" the toddler asked. "Does it mean I shouldn't tell on her?"


The Teacher spoke:
"My darling Little One, yes, you should always tell someone who can help you when something bad happens."


The introvert added:
"If you are known to be truthful, then people will believe you when you ask for help. If you always whine and complain, people are less likely to believe you."


THE MORAL:
I stand by my words. When I see injustices done to those I consider Family, I will come to their aid. Do NOT Fuck with my Family, Do NOT Fuck with my friends, Do NOT Fuck with the Ones I Love. I don't have to lift a finger or speak a word. Justice has a way of taking care of things.



Mary Price https://www.facebook.com/merrrycontrary

Friday, June 30, 2017

Life Is Funny That Way

All that kerfuffle for nothing!

Okay, I admit it: I wasn't exactly thrilled with my boyfriend's rapid descent into insanity by getting together with a woman shortly after his girlfriend broke up with him. 

 However, I was thrilled that he was willing to meet with me and negotiate an agreement regarding our polyamorous relationship. I was even more thrilled when he kept his promise and met with me. I found a vegan cafe within walking distance of where I live recently, so that's where we went.

I wasn't happy about this new girl, but I never told him on our numerous back and forth messages because I honestly didn't know how to approach it without sounding snarky or bitchy.

When he texted me about being on his way, he made an offhand comment about this being a particularly difficult week.

At this point, not much he says or does surprises me. Still, I was pleasantly surprised to find out that the new girl not only broke it off with him, but she also blocked him on all social media. I swear I had nothing to do with it, but I did tell him about all my concerns regarding her. He completely understood, and even mentioned "dodging that bullet." I'm glad he saw it that way.

So we did have that sit down meeting about our polyamory agreement, and I'm pleased to say that I got most of what I asked for. I even suggested that he gets to know a few women on my circle of friends that are nice and eligible.

I will try to update on this at a later date to see if he follows through.












Wednesday, June 28, 2017

It Isn't Badmouthing If It's True

I don't want her to fail. She's failed so many times before. Trainwreck is a trainwreck. Even a blind man can see that. Too bad lust causes a different type of blindness. I just have to watch it in slow motion. I already know he's going to get hurt and I can't help him. I just have to watch.

I won't even say I told you so to him because I didn't tell him. I mean it's all there in plain sight for him to see. She's going to rip him apart. I will hate her for it, because he DESERVES better, but he's too blind to see it. I don't understand the desperation he's in. I can give him what he wants. She will too, at least for a little while. Then she will be on a trainwreck again and drag him down with her. Lucky me! I will have to pick up all the pieces.



Right now I just don't like her because I know her past. When she hurts him, then I will hate her, I don't wish bad on her. I just see what's ahead.

I hope I'm wrong. I hope she is good and nice and loving. But I doubt it.

I'll just sit and wait. Then, when he's properly bandaged, I'll introduce him to some women who are worthy of him.



FYI: The above was written by Sunshine. I've corrected spelling, but the grammar is all hers.



An explanation of sorts: AKA: WHY is she a trainwreck?



I don't claim to know it all, and we all have our problems, but recent history says it all.


As someone with demons of my own, I understand the importance of proper medication and therapy. I get that. I have a very easy "cocktail" of medication that keeps my head in the right direction. The woman has rapid cycling Bipolar Disorder. She is
NOT medication compliant by her own admission. She drinks heavily (again by her own admission) and uses various drugs as well. It's not healthy. He is a vegan. She isn't, and she's not the type to even try it.


Over the past 24 months, she has had no less than 20 jobs. The longest one lasted a month. In the same amount of time, she has had 10 failed relationships, one only lasting 12 hours.


Like I've written elsewhere, I've known her for the past 2 years.We were friendly and used to communicate. I read her journal/blog for over 2 years. This is soon to be ugly.

Sometimes It Stays

Sometimes it ends. Other times, it just slowly fades. Whatever happens, there are feelings involved. Polyamory is funny that way.

This has been on my mind quite a bit recently. I don't adjust to changes very well. It's one of the very first things I tell people when we get involved. I even specify what are important things and what are unimportant things. What I expect/need to know, and what is "noise." Depending on my level of involvement, much of it is noise. I go to great lengths to explain what I will give, and what I expect.

I've been witness to a beginning, what appeared to be a fade, but was an ending, and what I call a "true fade" in the past month. I was even exposed to noise, which is something I hate. It seems that late spring/early summer is a hotbed of activity for many relationships. I blame the heat.

This is mostly about my "true fade." Several years ago, I took a submissive under consideration. It was a failure. The consideration period only lasted two weeks before I told him it wasn't going to work. He was bratty, couldn't (or wouldn't) follow simple instructions, and required more energy than I could muster. Both of us have experienced success with others. It was just a bad fit. We didn't love each other less either. Every year, right about this time of the year he calls me.

"Mistress Merry, do you think you could give me a spanking? A really hard one?" I answer yes and we make fluid plans to see one another, and it never happens. He called last night. I won't be available for him until after the 5th. The end of June until the second week of July is tough on me. If you go far back enough in my Journal, or you know me well, you know why. I'm not going to repeat it here. Princess is my true fade. I know that the day will come when he doesn't call, but I know it's not this year. It's not painful. It doesn't hurt. The one that hurts (there's always at least one) was the one that appeared to be a fade, but then ended abruptly due to circumstances neither of us could control. That one gives me all sorts of mixed feelings. Sadness, anger, and a hurt like being punched in the gut. I mourned it for months, even though I was in a happy thriving relationship that carried me through it. Every time I see his (real) name the pain becomes fresh. I yell and cuss when I see it. I still love him but I know he no longer loves me. It's my cross to bear.

I'm facing a difficult relationship decision right now made even more difficult by something I can't control dealing with Shilo. I'm distracted. I don't know how I will decide, but I know that there's too much noise here.

Friday, June 23, 2017

On Being Part of a Harem


In this entry, I use the word Harem as a group of women who engage in sex with one man.Yes, I'm polyamorous, and I do have 3 men that I'm in a sexual relationship with. There's Stitch, my Partner of nearly 13 years, Shilo, My slave/husband of 4 years, and then there's my boyfriend that I've been with for 3 years. In this case, because Stitch and Shilo are monogamous by choice, and my boyfriend is polyamorous, I'm part of his harem. 


Up until very recently, I was happy with my place. I had 'seniority' because I've been around the longest. He has several FWB's that I knew of, but I outranked them, and I'm also younger than them, and then he had his girlfriend who was younger than me. In my heart, she outranked me, but she happily treated me as an equal, or even like I outranked her because of my position as a Dominant,and because I've been around longer. Unlike his other relationships, ours can best be described as egalitarian. We're equals. It works for us.


Several weeks ago, he and the girlfriend broke up. Nobody bothered to tell me. I found out along with everyone else. I was hurt because I wasn't treated like I had any place in their lives. To me, it was common sense that I should be informed before the general public.  I brought it up with my boyfriend, because my relationship is with him, not her. 


Then, this past weekend, my boyfriend took me to stay overnight and spend the day with him. Even though I made it perfectly clear before, he started to talk to me about his FWB's.  Those women do not affect our relationship, and I honestly don't want to know details about them. He's been told that before. Several other things happened  that only made the situation even more uncomfortable for me, and because I wanted to avoid an argument, I waited until I got home, and sent him a note. (Paraphrased below)


Thank you for having me over. I was really looking forward to it, and I really enjoyed my "full immersion" vegan experience. I'm looking forward to more experiences like that with you.

There were a few things I really wanted to say, but didn't because I was afraid I'd say it wrong or it would be misunderstood, or, even worse, I would lose your admiration.

Here goes:

I'm not stupid enough to think that it's been just your girlfriend and myself in your life. I know you have FWB's etc; but I really (and I mean REALLY) don't want to know any details. The only time I would want to know is if you happen to impregnate one of them, which I realize is next to improbable/impossible. I really feel that unless it's a serious relationship, I don't need to know about it. I hope you understand I'm not upset or angry, it's just that I would prefer that some things were kept private.

The other thing I wanted to do is ask you an uncomfortable (for me) question. Did I say or do something offensive, or was something about me bothering you? I promise I won't be upset if you tell me. You seemed a bit distant and less affectionate than last time. You seemed to have no interest in giving me oral sex, and I wasn't about to demand it, but I felt that maybe there was something wrong with me, and you didn't want to be near me, or tell me what was on your mind. I just need you to be honest with me about it.
Love,
Me
P.S. I really did have a wonderful time with you.




His reply was:

 You are welcome.
I will keep details of my less serious relationships to myself. I told you about them in order to be completely open with you, but I can respect your wishes about that.

But no, you did not offend me, or anything like that. I think I was probably missing her so much that I could not concentrate on you as much as I should, and I apologize for that. I thought I was up to seeing you or others, but I guess not, as nothing really went the way I expected with anyone this weekend.


 After that, I figured he understood me, so imagine my surprise and shock when I found out he had a relationship status change with a new woman. Again, I was left in the dark! Didn't I mention that I wanted to know about important things? Was this not important? I sent a series of notes to him (again paraphrased)

That was fast! Remember our conversation about telling me things? This is something I'd like to know about in advance. 

I'm hurt and angry that you didn't even mention that you had someone on your radar. Surely she must have been on your radar before today.

(he apologized)

And now you know what I mean about important vs. unimportant.

I think I managed to get the point across though, because I got the following message this afternoon.

Just a heads up, (new girl) and I are going to update our profiles to show we are dating.

I thanked him for letting me know in advance. It was all I really wanted in the first place. Acknowledgement that I matter. I also realized that I had acted coldly towards this new girl, and it was unbecoming. I also owed my boyfriend an apology and explanation, so I sent this note:

I was having a less-than-stellar day yesterday, and it bled into everything else. I'd like to apologize if you felt I was abrupt, demanding, and/or pouty. I know you know I'm not normally that way, and I feel rotten about overreacting.

However, after talking it over with Shilo this morning, I realized that you're really the only secondary (because we don't live together) relationship I have. The others, while not casual, are much further removed. Also, because of how we started, we never really had any type of agreement, and looking back, if we did have one, much of the confusion and hurt feelings that's happened in the past week might have been prevented.

Would you be willing to meet with me for an hour or so next week so we can come up with something? I feel it would benefit the both of us as we go through this period of change. 

He acknowledged it would be a good idea, and we will hopefully meet next week and go over the agreement I have with Stitch and Shilo, and what I would ideally want from him, and what parts of my agreement with the two of them that he wants carried over into our relationship agreement. Even though it is by no means legally binding, at least it will prevent future problems, and having a written guideline will allow us to reference it if/when problems arise.
 














Sunday, May 28, 2017

A Thought

I know I don't have many readers here, but I had an unusual (for me) Saturday afternoon yesterday. I went to a potluck BBQ at an acquaintance's house. 

I've known her about 5 years, but rarely saw her except for a once a year "retreat" of sorts. Anyway, when I broke my right humerus in two places last July, she was kind enough to offer her services to cut out the mats in my hair and help me feel pretty. She's a licensed hairdresser, and since she was willing to come to me, who was I to complain? She did a great job, and since then has come over about every 3 months when I asked her to help out with the hair. For the first six months, I was unable to wash or brush my hair, so either Stitch or Shilo got stuck with that along with other personal bodily tasks that I won't mention.

So, anyway, this BBQ is a once a year big affair that she and her husband  host.  He smokes meats, and people bring all sorts of yummy things to complement the meat. I decided to do something gluten free that Shilo and others might enjoy. People often say that "Gluten Free" is another word for tasteless and often disgusting baked goods that have a funny texture on the mouth. Often, recipes call for Xanthan gum as a binder because it's gluten free. I've always been determined to fix gluten free food with pronounceable and easy to find things that aren't overpriced.

I'm fond of experimentation as well, and because of that, I'll often buy gluten free snacks and dessert items at places such as Big Lots or even the 99 cents only store, along with Dollar Tree. One of my more recent finds was a box of "gourmet" chocolate chip cookies. I read the package,and was pleasantly surprised to discover that all the ingredients were recognizable, and most of them I had at home. I bought it for Shilo, and when I asked him,he said they were "delicious." I insisted on trying, and sure enough, they were a delight on the tongue and tastebuds. I noticed they were made exclusively with rice flour.  I decided that I'd go searching for rice flour on my next outing. I bought it at the 99 cents only store and put it in my pantry and forgot about it until a few weeks ago when I got the invitation.

Over the past week, I've looked through the internet trying to find a cookie recipe that would suit Shilo's need for gluten free and my desire for easy to pronounce ingredients that wouldn't break the bank. It had to be similar enough to my personal cookie recipe that I've used since I was in my teens as far as taste was concerned, and, of course, use the brown rice flour. I was met with many disappointments, but I found two recipes that almost fit my needs, but areas were lacking in both of them.  Fortunately, the areas could easily be fixed by taking the best of each, and that's what I did.

I made a HUGE bowl of cookies, and baked up half the batch for the BBQ. The rest got bagged and refrigerated to bake later this week. The cookies were about a '9' rated by Shilo, and I hate to admit it, but I gave them a '10.' There was one younger male who has gluten intolerance and was so excited to see cookies that he hugged me. Later, his girlfriend asked for my secret. I emailed my recipe to her. I told her she might want to halve it, because I like to make HUGE amounts of cookies.

I guess it was that success that got me thinking about all my other recipes that I've modified to make gluten free. I don't have many, but what if I created a blog/forum similar to Dan's where men and women could discuss and share their gluten free cooking disasters as well as successes, and recipes could be exchanged? Something for people like me who love to cook and eat but aren't professional chefs or nutritionists but just like good tasting foods.

I'd much rather talk to a real person about the trial and error approach where the (poor) family dog gets the mistakes, or sometimes it's too horrible even for the dog. I'd also like to share the recipes that I have perfected and maybe provide encouragement for people taking those first painful steps in trying out gluten free food and coming short. 

So, all the above is just saying that I have an idea for a blog, and I'm asking for encouragement.
Please?

Friday, May 26, 2017

More Just For Fun

1. Who are you named after?
My Daddy. Keep in mind I'm not really a Mary/Merry.

2. Last time you cried?
This morning.

3. Do you like your handwriting?
It's difficult to read.

4. What is your favorite island?
That I've been to: Catalina. That I will probably never get to: Australia (I've been to Oahu and Maui as well)

5. Longest relationship?
13+ years and still going strong.

7. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes.

8. Would you bungee jump?
NO!

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal?
Mix of plain Cheerios and Red Berry Special K. Otherwise it's too sweet.

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Sometimes.

12. Favorite ice cream?
Rocky Road (I prefer the one with almonds)

13. What is the first thing you notice about a person?
It depends. Coming towards me - The eyes.
Facing away - the bottom

14. Football or baseball?
Neither
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15. Favorite animal you would probably never own?
Dolphin.

16. Last thing you ate?
Leftovers.

17. What are you listening to?
"One Sweet Love" - Sara Bareilles from a YouTube mix. Not familiar with her, but I like it.

18. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Magenta

19. What is your Favorite smell?
Vanilla

20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
A telemarketer.

21. Married?
Yes.

22. Hair color?
Pink with dark brown. Usually dark brown with LOTS of silver.

23. Eye color?
Blue

24. Favorite foods?
Anything I don't have to cook. Strawberries, cherries, broccoli (but it must be cooked!)

25. Scary movies or happy endings?
Either/or.

26. Last show you watched?
The Big Bang Theory (repeat)

27. What color shirt are you wearing?
Gray.

28. Favorite holiday?
Thanksgiving. I love to cook for Family and Friends!

29. Beer or Wine?
Neither. Root beer!

30. Night owl or morning person?
Depends on the day.

31. Favorite day of the week?
Saturday or Monday

32. Favorite season?
Spring.

Monday, May 22, 2017

101 Mostly Irrelevant Questions and Answers

The stuff people ask me! I'll put an updated set of questions in the comments area.

1.) When's your birthday?
July 13

2.) What's your sign?
Slippery When Wet. Oh, you mean astrological? Cancer, the crab

3.) What's​ your favorite color?
Black, although many would argue that black isn’t a color. Let’s go with pink and blue shades, also lavender

4.) What's your favorite season?
Spring

5.) Where are you from?
Born in Southern California

6.) Where do you currently live?
Long Beach, CA

7.) How old are you?
Old enough. (55)

8.) What is your gender?
Female

9.) What is your sexual orientation?
Whenever possible! I’m very selective, but gender had little to do with it.

10.) What is your favorite bodily asset?
My eyes.

11.) Who's your favorite superhero?
I don’t think I ever had one.

12.) When was the last time that you had sex?
A long while ago. Given the choice, I’d have sex at least once a week

13.) What is your favorite position?
Depends on what’s being done and by whom.

14.) What is your biggest sexual fantasy?
Currently? Engaging in intercourse with one of my Partners.

15.) What type of music do you listen to?
I have an eclectic taste in music. I dislike bluegrass and electronica.

16.) Who are five of your favorite musical artists?
Not answering with the names, but at least one is Heavy metal at least one is a rap artist, at least one started as a boy band from the 1960’s, and one is a female who started in the 1980’s. None of them is Cher.

17.) What are five of your favorite musical albums?
Dark Side of the Moon
Boston
Disney’s Classics (produced in 1980?)
Bat out of Hell
The Anthology of Bread
(None of the above were mentioned in #16)

18.) What type of movies/TV shows do you watch?
I don’t have a “type”

19.) Who are five of your favorite actors & actresses?
Sandra Bullock
Samuel L Jackson
Jack Nicholson
Morgan Freeman
Helen Mirren
Uma Thurman

20.) Who are three of your favorite directors?
Quentin Tarantino
Kevin Smith
I don’t have a third at the moment

21.) What are some of your hobbies?
Napping and cooking large meals.

22.) What type of underwear do you prefer to wear?
Comfortable

23.) Do you have any tats and/or piercings? If so, how many and where at?
Yes to both. I even have a scarification piece. At one point I had about 30 piercings. Most have been retired.

24.) What is your favorite pastime?
Reading books. I mean REAL books, not those e-book things.

25.) What do you like to do for fun?
You mean besides my hobbies and my favorite pastime? Writing.

26.) What are five qualities that you look for in a significant other and/or friend?
Honesty
The ability to laugh at one’s self and me
Kindness
A positive attitude
Patience

27.) What is your life's motto?
I have two.
Anything worth having is worth waiting for.
Life is too short to hold grudges

28.) What are five words or/and phrases that would describe you?
Childlike, but NOT childish.
Honest to a fault.
Warm hearted.
Loyal
Quiet on the outside.

29.) What are some of your fears/phobias?
Heights, takeoffs and landings on planes (I’m fine once I’m off the ground) Abandonment.

30.) Are you a sexual person?
Yes

31.) What are some of your pet peeves?
Spelling, grammar, and punctuation errors.
Improper use of contractions (Should of instead of Should have or Should’ve)
Improper use of They’re, Their, or There
using (‘) when unnecessary (EX: tattoo’s instead of tattoos)
Text speak
Mangled usage of the English language
Penis pictures as avatars
Multiple selfies in a profile.

32.) Where are your hot spots?
Wifi or other?

33.) What is your relationship status at this moment?
Married and Polyamorous. Mistress with a slave and submissive. I have other partners as well. Open to more.

34.) Do you have any kids?
All grown up! (thank goodness!)

35.) Do you have any pets (animals)?
Yes

36.) What is the most sexual adventurous thing you've done thus far?
I’ll never tell

37.) Do you have a college degree?
yes

38.) Are you currently in school (college or high school)?
No

39.) What is/was/will be your major & minor?
Nursing

40.) What is your life's dream?
I’m living it most days.

41.) What is your dream career?
I’ve done it. (Nursing)

42.) What is your dream car?
Ford F150 (So fun to drive, but impractical for me)

43.) Do you prefer to give or receive oral, more?
I prefer receiving, but will gladly give in many circumstances.

44.) What is your stance on public display of affection?
Depends on the type and how public.

45.) What is your favorite kind of meal?
The ones I don’t have to cook.
Broccoli is my favorite vegetable followed by brussels sprouts

46.) What is your favorite dessert?
Depends on the occasion. It usually involves chocolate.

47.) What is your favorite bodily asset on another person?
The eyes.

48.) What are some of your best qualities (both physical and nonphysical)?
I mentioned them on #10 and #28

49.) What is your spirit animal?
I usually get wolf, but also cat. A little of both.

50.) Are you religious? If so what's your religion?
I’m not overly religious anymore, but I consider myself to be Christian.

51.) If you were a superhero/villain, what would be your name and your super powers (up to four choices)?
I wouldn’t want to be a superhero or villain, but the ability to fly and/or instantly travel to wherever I want would be nice

52.) Who are your top four favorite comedians?
Not sharing that.

53.) What is the superhero film in your opinion?
Your question makes no sense.

54.) Who is the best Batman and Joker? (Yes, Conroy and Hamill count)
The Originals. Adam West as Batman and Cesar Romero as Joker

55.) What is your favorite childhood animated movie?
The Jungle Book

56.) What age did you lose your virginity?
16

57.) What are four things that you consider yourself good at?
Cooking
Writing
Ask me later about the other 2

58.) Are you a morning or night person?
Night

59.) Do you masturbate? If so, when was the last time you did?
Rarely (as in less than once a year)

60.) What are some of your "vanilla" interests?
Look at #21 and #24

61.) What is something that you like but you shouldn't?
Can’t think of anything right now.

62.) Are you ticklish?
Sometimes

63.) Who is the worst director/actor/actress in your opinion?
Meg Ryan

64.) Do you like to dance?
Yes.

65.) Do you like to go out or are you a homebody?
Homebody, but I enjoy myself when I do go out.

66.) Who is the best James Bond in your opinion?
I dislike ALL James Bond movies.

67.) What are you wearing right now?
Shoes

68.) Who is/are your celebrity bae(s)?
I don’t understand the question. English please?

69.) Do you smoke and/or drink?
No.

70.) Which do you prefer crayons, markers, or color pencils?
Sunshine likes crayons. So do I.

71.) Do you prefer showers or baths?
To get clean? Showers.

72.) Have you ever cheated and/or been cheated on?
Yes

73.) What are three of your bad habits?
Correcting others in regards to question #31
Being impatient

74.) What is your nickname?
Merry, Sunshine, or Merry Sunshine

75.) What is the best pick up line you've heard or/and used?
None

76.) What do you wear to sleep?
Nothing, unless it’s cold.

77.) Are you into being​ romantic?
Not really

78.) What is the first thing people notice about you?
I’ve been told it’s my eyes and/or my smile

79.) What is your stance on anal and rimming?
Whatever makes the person happy.

80.) What is your turn up/get hype song?
I have more than one.

81.) What song do you always play when you are sad?
I don’t

82.) What is your favorite animal?
Domestic or wild?

83.) Who's better, Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan, Tony Jaa, Donnie Yen, or Jet Li?
I enjoy Jackie Chan the most.

84.) What is/was your longest relationship?
About 15 years so far

85.) Have you ever had a one night stand? If so, when was the last time?
Nope.

86.) Who are your favorite male and female pornstar​s?
I don’t really watch porn.

87.) How do you usually wait before you fuck someone?
I don’t have a “usual” amount of time. The shortest was a week after we met. The longest was after 2 ½ years of dating.

88.) What is the last new thing that you tried?
I went to a new restaurant last month. I had corn chowder the first time a week ago.

89.) What was/is your favorite subject in school?
English

90.) What is one thing that absolutely will turn you on everytime?
Biting (giving)

91.) Have you ever sent nudes and/or sexted someone? If so, when was the last time?
Over 3 years ago.

92.) Are you superstitious?
A little

93.) What is your favorite number?
13

94.) Where is your dream location to live?
I don’t have one.

95.) Do you workout?
No

96.) What do you do in order to relax?
Play video games or watching movies usually send me to Lala land

97.) Do you have any allergies?
Many!

98.) What are the top three things that you find unattractive?
Lying
Poor hygiene
Lack of manners

99.) Should we converse with one another after you've answered this?
Only if you want

100.) Do you think that you can turn me on?
I might be able to.

101.) Will you add me as a friend?
I don’t know you well enough, but feel free to follow me.

Friday, May 19, 2017

The Miracle of An Open Heart

A few days ago, I write about the unexpected death of my friend Tommy. I decided that maybe forgiveness had a place in all this. I unblocked all the people I had blocked on my vanilla Facebook page. I had no idea of they would even bother to contact me, but I had opened my heart to that possibility.


When I did that, I noticed someone who was a former neighbor of mine from when I was married to the father of my children. For reference, I left him 21 years ago. About 10 years ago, this person found me on Facebook, and we would sometimes message back and forth, but this friend got upset because I neglected to put a birthday greeting on their wall in 2011. I had a good reason, but this person went ballistic, so I blocked them.  When I unblocked this person, I checked out their page. I was happy to see that my former friend was doing well.


Today, I went to an inactive social network page of mine, and I found a message request. It was from that former friend I mentioned above. The message was from 2 years ago, apologizing for their actions. There was a phone number attached, so I called from Shilo's phone (blocked) The first time, the person hung up on me. The second time, it went to voicemail, so I left a message,saying I would call back soon.  I waited 15 minutes and tried again, but it went to voicemail, so I replied to the message online. This person apologized again, and I could tell it was sincere. We agreed that I would call sometime over the weekend. I'm happy it turned out this way.


I could leave with that story, but I have another related to forgiving. On early March, I went back on OKC after a 8+ month hiatus. A slightly older gentleman messaged me (In fact, several people messaged me, but this is about this one) His wife had recently died, and he just wanted someone to talk to. We talked on the phone and emailed each other, but I was still having problems with my frozen shoulder, and we (Shilo, Stitch, and Myself) were still trying to find somewhere to move.  I told him that I'd be a few weeks with limited internet, but I would call him on a regular basis, but by the end of March, he stopped calling or replying. I was sad that he didn't bother ending things and just left me hanging, even though I acknowledged to myself that the timing was off. I like closure.


Anyway he called me this afternoon and apologized for disappearing without a goodbye. It turns out he met someone, and they're pretty serious. I guess he thought I'd be upset or disappointed, but I'm happy for him. I even acknowledged that the timing was wrong for me.


I guess I'm two for two, and I feel pretty good about it.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Death

In the past week, several people I call friend have died. Friend is not a title I give loosely. You earn that. Yes, there are Facebook friends, Fetlife friends, etc; but I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about more than just that. People I've shared secrets with, laughed with, and cried with. People who made a difference in my life. People who never forgot that they were loved by me.


M died due to a blood clot that traveled to her brain. It was sudden, but in the days preceding her death, we (her friends) knew that she was going to die. Hard? Yes. 

Tommy started out as an online acquaintance about 15 years ago that turned into something more. In April 2010, during a cross country road trip, we finally met up. The sparks were real. I met his daughter then as well. If she hadn't been there, more might have happened, but it wasn't to be. I never considered him a "lost love" because we became facebook friends, and would call on a regular basis until my mom died. Still, Facebook kept us in touch. Even when I found out he was a Trump supporter, I kept in touch. We made plans to see each other "soon" because I just knew I'd return to Texas eventually.

An excerpt of our last online conversation is below:

Mary Price You aren't racist or hate-mongering. You just have a different opinion on things.
 
Obamacare kept my son Jonathan alive when he developed cancer. He would be dead today if it wasn't for the Affordable Care Act. Still, I accept that you have a different opinion.
 
Now stop yelling about your guns blazing and give Merry a hug. You know you want to.
 
I'm sure that everything will work out.

May 11 at 8:01am 
Tommy Marling
Tommy  (((Hugs))) love ya hun wish you didnt live so far away you love me for who I am and not for what you want me to be.A true heart you have.Im truly happy that hes doing better I remember the hell you had.Im not saying Obama Care is all bad but I shouldnt have to have 4 hundred bucks taken out of my paycheck because I dont have healthcare either.I can always just go to the VA...

May 11 at 12:23pm


Tommy was found dead in his bedroom Sunday morning (5-14) with a broken neck. All I could get out of his daughter was that it was an accident. I'm heartbroken. Tommy was always helping people, and even when his house burned down a few years ago, he helped out others. He was a giving person. I'm proud to have been his friend, and I'm grateful that I gave him "flowers" while he was living. 

I have a favor to ask: Please remember that we only walk on this earth for a limited time. We don't know when our life might end, or the lives of others. Please don't hold back your feelings. Tell people 'Thank you, I love you, I care' if you feel that way. Share those good happy feelings. Don't be full of regret when it's too late.

Merry