The stuff people ask me! I'll put an updated set of questions in the comments area.
1.) When's your birthday?
2.) What's your sign?
Slippery When Wet. Oh, you mean astrological? Cancer, the crab
3.) What's your favorite color?
Black, although many would argue that black isn’t a color. Let’s go with pink and blue shades, also lavender
4.) What's your favorite season?
5.) Where are you from?
Born in Southern California
6.) Where do you currently live?
Long Beach, CA
7.) How old are you?
Old enough. (55)
8.) What is your gender?
9.) What is your sexual orientation?
Whenever possible! I’m very selective, but gender had little to do with it.
10.) What is your favorite bodily asset?
11.) Who's your favorite superhero?
I don’t think I ever had one.
12.) When was the last time that you had sex?
A long while ago. Given the choice, I’d have sex at least once a week
13.) What is your favorite position?
Depends on what’s being done and by whom.
14.) What is your biggest sexual fantasy?
Currently? Engaging in intercourse with one of my Partners.
15.) What type of music do you listen to?
I have an eclectic taste in music. I dislike bluegrass and electronica.
16.) Who are five of your favorite musical artists?
Not answering with the names, but at least one is Heavy metal at least one is a rap artist, at least one started as a boy band from the 1960’s, and one is a female who started in the 1980’s. None of them is Cher.
17.) What are five of your favorite musical albums?
Dark Side of the Moon
Disney’s Classics (produced in 1980?)
Bat out of Hell
The Anthology of Bread
(None of the above were mentioned in #16)
18.) What type of movies/TV shows do you watch?
I don’t have a “type”
19.) Who are five of your favorite actors & actresses?
Samuel L Jackson
20.) Who are three of your favorite directors?
I don’t have a third at the moment
21.) What are some of your hobbies?
Napping and cooking large meals.
22.) What type of underwear do you prefer to wear?
23.) Do you have any tats and/or piercings? If so, how many and where at?
Yes to both. I even have a scarification piece. At one point I had about 30 piercings. Most have been retired.
24.) What is your favorite pastime?
Reading books. I mean REAL books, not those e-book things.
25.) What do you like to do for fun?
You mean besides my hobbies and my favorite pastime? Writing.
26.) What are five qualities that you look for in a significant other and/or friend?
The ability to laugh at one’s self and me
A positive attitude
27.) What is your life's motto?
I have two.
Anything worth having is worth waiting for.
Life is too short to hold grudges
28.) What are five words or/and phrases that would describe you?
Childlike, but NOT childish.
Honest to a fault.
Quiet on the outside.
29.) What are some of your fears/phobias?
Heights, takeoffs and landings on planes (I’m fine once I’m off the ground) Abandonment.
30.) Are you a sexual person?
31.) What are some of your pet peeves?
Spelling, grammar, and punctuation errors.
Improper use of contractions (Should of instead of Should have or Should’ve)
Improper use of They’re, Their, or There
using (‘) when unnecessary (EX: tattoo’s instead of tattoos)
Mangled usage of the English language
Penis pictures as avatars
Multiple selfies in a profile.
32.) Where are your hot spots?
Wifi or other?
33.) What is your relationship status at this moment?
Married and Polyamorous. Mistress with a slave and submissive. I have other partners as well. Open to more.
34.) Do you have any kids?
All grown up! (thank goodness!)
35.) Do you have any pets (animals)?
36.) What is the most sexual adventurous thing you've done thus far?
I’ll never tell
37.) Do you have a college degree?
38.) Are you currently in school (college or high school)?
39.) What is/was/will be your major & minor?
40.) What is your life's dream?
I’m living it most days.
41.) What is your dream career?
I’ve done it. (Nursing)
42.) What is your dream car?
Ford F150 (So fun to drive, but impractical for me)
43.) Do you prefer to give or receive oral, more?
I prefer receiving, but will gladly give in many circumstances.
44.) What is your stance on public display of affection?
Depends on the type and how public.
45.) What is your favorite kind of meal?
The ones I don’t have to cook.
Broccoli is my favorite vegetable followed by brussels sprouts
46.) What is your favorite dessert?
Depends on the occasion. It usually involves chocolate.
47.) What is your favorite bodily asset on another person?
48.) What are some of your best qualities (both physical and nonphysical)?
I mentioned them on #10 and #28
49.) What is your spirit animal?
I usually get wolf, but also cat. A little of both.
50.) Are you religious? If so what's your religion?
I’m not overly religious anymore, but I consider myself to be Christian.
51.) If you were a superhero/villain, what would be your name and your super powers (up to four choices)?
I wouldn’t want to be a superhero or villain, but the ability to fly and/or instantly travel to wherever I want would be nice
52.) Who are your top four favorite comedians?
Not sharing that.
53.) What is the superhero film in your opinion?
Your question makes no sense.
54.) Who is the best Batman and Joker? (Yes, Conroy and Hamill count)
The Originals. Adam West as Batman and Cesar Romero as Joker
55.) What is your favorite childhood animated movie?
The Jungle Book
56.) What age did you lose your virginity?
57.) What are four things that you consider yourself good at?
Ask me later about the other 2
58.) Are you a morning or night person?
59.) Do you masturbate? If so, when was the last time you did?
Rarely (as in less than once a year)
60.) What are some of your "vanilla" interests?
Look at #21 and #24
61.) What is something that you like but you shouldn't?
Can’t think of anything right now.
62.) Are you ticklish?
63.) Who is the worst director/actor/actress in your opinion?
64.) Do you like to dance?
65.) Do you like to go out or are you a homebody?
Homebody, but I enjoy myself when I do go out.
66.) Who is the best James Bond in your opinion?
I dislike ALL James Bond movies.
67.) What are you wearing right now?
68.) Who is/are your celebrity bae(s)?
I don’t understand the question. English please?
69.) Do you smoke and/or drink?
70.) Which do you prefer crayons, markers, or color pencils?
Sunshine likes crayons. So do I.
71.) Do you prefer showers or baths?
To get clean? Showers.
72.) Have you ever cheated and/or been cheated on?
73.) What are three of your bad habits?
Correcting others in regards to question #31
74.) What is your nickname?
Merry, Sunshine, or Merry Sunshine
75.) What is the best pick up line you've heard or/and used?
76.) What do you wear to sleep?
Nothing, unless it’s cold.
77.) Are you into being romantic?
78.) What is the first thing people notice about you?
I’ve been told it’s my eyes and/or my smile
79.) What is your stance on anal and rimming?
Whatever makes the person happy.
80.) What is your turn up/get hype song?
I have more than one.
81.) What song do you always play when you are sad?
82.) What is your favorite animal?
Domestic or wild?
83.) Who's better, Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan, Tony Jaa, Donnie Yen, or Jet Li?
I enjoy Jackie Chan the most.
84.) What is/was your longest relationship?
About 15 years so far
85.) Have you ever had a one night stand? If so, when was the last time?
86.) Who are your favorite male and female pornstars?
I don’t really watch porn.
87.) How do you usually wait before you fuck someone?
I don’t have a “usual” amount of time. The shortest was a week after we met. The longest was after 2 ½ years of dating.
88.) What is the last new thing that you tried?
I went to a new restaurant last month. I had corn chowder the first time a week ago.
89.) What was/is your favorite subject in school?
90.) What is one thing that absolutely will turn you on everytime?
91.) Have you ever sent nudes and/or sexted someone? If so, when was the last time?
Over 3 years ago.
92.) Are you superstitious?
93.) What is your favorite number?
94.) Where is your dream location to live?
I don’t have one.
95.) Do you workout?
96.) What do you do in order to relax?
Play video games or watching movies usually send me to Lala land
97.) Do you have any allergies?
98.) What are the top three things that you find unattractive?
Lack of manners
99.) Should we converse with one another after you've answered this?
Only if you want
100.) Do you think that you can turn me on?
I might be able to.
101.) Will you add me as a friend?
I don’t know you well enough, but feel free to follow me.
Some will have pity and leave. There will be a few who will come and kick me and rip me to shreds, whether for their own enjoyment, or the enjoyment of others. Others, the ones who are truly able to Love me will stay, and sit by me, or even tend to my wounds. Not because of who I am, but because of who they are. Staying by someone when they have nothing left, when their veils have been ripped, their protective shell broken, and all you see is a wounded soft underbelly is Honorable. Loving them is doubly so. I'm still not sure what hurts more. Being the wounded, or caring for the wounded. I know the rewards of both, but I've only experienced one until now. Being on the other side is uncharted territory, and showing my wounds, as ugly as they are, and knowing I'm powerless to heal myself without the time and patience of others has been humbling.
I'd like to think that in spite of the mess I must be, I'm in the healing stage. It doesn't stop people from kicking me or cutting me, but I'm no longer crying for mercy when they do it. I'm feeling defiant, not fighting them, but wondering out loud if that's the best they can do. Goading them on. I see them for who they really are. Bullies. Not Sadists. A Sadist will cut me and give me time to heal, or will at least check on me before making the next cut. Bullies kick and cut without rhyme or reason, and don't care if you'll be around. They don't tend to wounds. A Sadist will be patient. Tending to my wounds because it's become a game. I respect that. A Sadist won't purposely kill you. The aim of the bully is to be the victor. "I killed (person)" or "Look how powerful I am. I won."
Did someone call me a self-serving masochist? Really???!!! Like anyone would gleefully be exposed, beaten down to nothing, and left to die willingly? No. That is not masochism, that is insanity! My defiance isn't masochism, and even though it might appear to be insanity, I know that in order for me to get strong again, I will have to push myself. Go beyond what I feel I can handle in order to stand on my own, or in this case, stand with the Ones who Love me, who are Honorable, and who understand that this ugly wounded mess is a Warrior, and will be a Warrior once again.
I could have suffered in silence and gone into hiding when I saw the writing on the wall. We've all done that. I've done that, but you reach a point in your life where you can't keep running and hiding. When you realize that talking about your pain and maybe even showing it's ugly side will finally heal you. When you're exposed and crushed and crawling in the dirt that's become mud from all the blood you've shed.
God knows I've suffered losses in every part of my life. I've fought the demons of Fear and Insecurity, and in spite of all that, I never gave up, but sometimes you have to stop and breathe. I didn't give up.
Listen, did you hear that? I'm breathing.
Touch me. Did you feel that? It's my heart beating.
My eyes are open. Do you know what I see? I didn't think so. Only the blind run and hide. I'm not blind anymore. I see things as they are. Yes, I'm a mess, but I see that light at the end of the tunnel, and this time, I'm pretty sure it's someone else with a flashlight and not a train getting ready to run me down.
Can I be your flashlight?